And Again.

Deep inside every girlfriends, ask yourself "Does your boyfriend really really, Really Loves you?" a boyfriend that will take care of you, that will always be there when you need em, always wish you good night sleeps, wish you up in the morning just to hear your voice, caress you gently, surprise you with the cutest gift that no other girls can buy, and the only guy person that understands, your needs. Understands that once he is in a relationship with you, he would quit smoking and limits his amount of days in clubs. Nonetheless, the only fear that everyone have is, you shouldn't have 2 or more relationships at a time. If you have marked all the points, you should know the answer and you can consider yourself being the luckiest girlfriend in life. But ask again, "Is your Boyfriend, the luckiest boyfriend in life?"

And one more thing, a boyfriend who is capable to protect. A guy who can rescue you when you're in trouble. Haha. I'm not encouraging you to go after the gangster boyfriends or anything, as they are generally easy to get in fights, and highly temperamental. Do you feel secure in that way?

I was kind of weak back then.

Flashing back the past, 2 months ago. 59 days back. New Year's eve. I went countdown with my friends at Sunway Pyramid. it was 1.14 am. Year 2009 already. I was hanging with 2 of my girl friends waiting for my sister to reach pyramid from a barbecue countdown at an unknown beach on the way to Port Dickson, so we can get back together with lesser problems because my parents were still awake and waiting us to come back home. Well, we were at the pyramid entrance, viewing across the 5 foot way, people were still having snow spray wars, girls were screaming and yelling "NOOO" when they get sprayed. The guys were chasing after them with that screaming weapon. Different girls they sprayed on, different sounds they get.

While staring at the situation, this bunch of malay guys were wandering around us with their sickening snow spray. I knew my friends were having that no good expression. Both of them hated the snow spray.
"ed vinn, i think we better get inside."
"we go now, faster walk. Go go go."
*Sprayed*
"WTF"
I Shoved the guy with my palm, who sprayed one of my friend. he almost slump down and I gave him my anger look.
"JANGAN KACAU"
he stood up. giving me the "WTF" look.
"Kenapa?"
his gang came up, roughly 8 of them including him. they wanted to encircle me. I moved back, 8 feet away from the small entrance where my friends were inside already. 8 of them were quite skinny, aging about 17-19 years old. They have that look that they want to hit me.
I said with anger, "Kawan Saya TAK Suka Benda itu." even though I am one person only, i was nervous inside.
"Kenapa?" they guy reply the same thing. Then all of them came closer to me.
"GO AWAY" I shouted at them, moving backward and quickly into the small entrance.

2 security guards were at the small entrance. The main one was closed already. The securities were ensuring that no snow sprays were allowed in the building. The malay gang went in from the other side of the small entrance beside starbucks. One of my friend reported to one of the securites, "Itu Melayu di Luar nak Kacau kami!" i wanted to point at the guy who sprayed my friend but he went off after he saw us with the securities.

We sat down about an hour plus with the securities. Another 3 companion came. We talked while waiting till 3.20am and my sister reached. Took a taxi that cost rm25 to ss18, dropped off my friends home savely, and went back home. Baba And Mama, Yelling. And that was the end of it.

I pictured back again, I didn't have the strength to shoo the malay gang, instead I fled away. I was small. My friends were insecure. I felt weak.

And Now, I want to have that strength to protect. Give me at least 3 months.

To be Continue.

Restart.

Hello! This would be my new blog and my fourth one.

And it would be more to a Self Help type.



To Be Continue.

Once Again

Back to blogging.Am I Awake?

I want ME to change this time. I know I have been missing for ages from blogging. I’m always lazy to blog and I have no purpose to blog for. Instead, I do stuffs that are meaningless. Entertainment from Games, especially DOTA. A game that most boys plays this generation. Too much of this entertainment holds one back. It kills your time and your life. PS: For those who don’t know much about the game, it’s a map from the game, Warcraft, Frozen Throne, that you play over and over again, except, you play it again with a different hero, different teammates and opponents. The task in the game is to destroy the opponent’s throne to win the game. That is where the addiction kicks in. An average duration to complete the game takes about 40 minute to 1 hour and 10 minutes.

This was where I saw myself as a useless person. Half of my Life was destroyed from that game. A game that only satisfies temporary when you win the game, it’s F***ing ridiculous.

Gamers;

Over & Repeating Entertainment = Lifeless, Wasted.

Now you readers know, what I been doing for these years, it really kills.

It was sad. Not to mention, there are other stuffs too, but I don’t think I want to touch on that.

My Amendment.

Well, I’m strongly inspired now. Most of them came from my surroundings. Before this, knowing many friends who are already decided what they want in their future and looking at me, still undecided yet. I saw in their eyes, many were just plain determined, some were so random, some were confident but not so sure, some were convinced from parents & friends, and only few knew what they really wanted. Same questions had thrown me a thousand times, “So what are you planning to do?”, “My son, Oh, he decided to take medicine, pursuing to be a Doctor,” “Oh I’m going to do Business” “I am going to master in English.” “I am going to do Law!” “mass-com” “And me?” I don’t know. I was in the state of total lost, but not for long. I came out with options in my mind, first was piloting, second was hotel management, third was accountancy, forth was into cooking and the last was a last resort, following my dad’s footsteps to become an electrical engineer. It was a long process to actually and firmly and genuinely and properly decide a path from my options.

On the other hand, when it comes to this point when someone to come up to you, “I do look up high on you” seeing you’re capable in taking possessions of something, strikes in your mind. It’s a strong compliment which you’re not sure you may or may not deserve it. Why hesitate? Maybe because you think it might not been proven yet or maybe you’re in the process of improving that, it showed people to see the change in you. And that, it is a sign of respect you don’t want to dilute it. “Do not be proud before you achieve and prove something.”

To be Continue.