Unsolved and Unfilled.
To be Continued.
Matchbox Twenty - Hand me down.
Monday, September 7, 2009
After Again
Again I'm back, either for good or not. I feel like expressing something into words. There's a bunch, a gang, a horde, a group, a lot of things flowing into my head. There are times when i just sit down and my head is blanked after a great hang out or a hang over, after a party or a good movie, after a good talk/laugh with friends, after an enjoyment. That enjoyment only played temporary. After everyone has left, I'm just all alone. Feeling quite a bit of emptiness. Even after my friends and I message each other that they and I had a great time, it goes back to square sometimes. The pleasure dies off, the candles dies off, the feelings fades away. And I'm in my room, thinking, wondering, imagining, Day Dreaming and the lights turns off. Is it just me? Did I not filled my heart with fulfillment? Or is there a hole in my heart which the fulfillment is leaking out? Is my expectations were too high that made me think like this? Is the atmosphere around me killing the implementation in me? Am i thinking too much? Someone please slap me some directions, some senses, some Sagacity.
Unsolved and Unfilled.
To be Continued.
Matchbox Twenty - Hand me down.
Unsolved and Unfilled.
To be Continued.
Matchbox Twenty - Hand me down.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Once again.
Imagine this scenario, Me driving in my car in ss15. I left my house an hour before a psychology class. Probably about a 5 minute drive away from Inti College or less. Its 1 o'clock in the afternoon, I went a round the area searching for a parking and stucked for about 30-45 minutes right in front of asia cafe just because of one BIG PINKY SlikGirl lorry.
Only one fat idian man was unloading the packages up and down from the lorry to the shoplot. A white proton wira was right behind the pink lorry waiting for the fat idian man finished unloading. Behind the proton wira was me. Every car behind me kept honking like crazy. One thing that kept me waiting patiently was the car right behind me, a black honda honking with some rhythm and i immatated it. I then honk with some weird rhythm, it followed. A bunch of pretty girls was in the black honda. I honked, she honked. We laughed together and kept doing it like 20 minutes! after the unloading was finished, i went about 4 rounds again, passed asia cafe and Sri KL. Sri KL was flooded with bunch of kia su drivers and parents, blocked the small area.
I was always most of the time lucky enough to find a good parking space for my car but today was just not my day. I then saw one small parking space not really a good enough one for me, but i was desperate. It was in front of myplace apartment, the one in between Inti and Taylors, right before asia cafe parking and the SoyaKing lorry and 2pm already! psycho class!! i tried squeezing in between a toyota camry and a perodua myvi. no spacee. Some stranger came and tried to estimate for me. i said cannot, but he said it's possible but nott easy. i tried and i scratched the myvi. The guard in the myplace apartment saw and stopped me and offered me to park inside the apartment. Now i know where to park when i'm deperate!
To be Continue.
Only one fat idian man was unloading the packages up and down from the lorry to the shoplot. A white proton wira was right behind the pink lorry waiting for the fat idian man finished unloading. Behind the proton wira was me. Every car behind me kept honking like crazy. One thing that kept me waiting patiently was the car right behind me, a black honda honking with some rhythm and i immatated it. I then honk with some weird rhythm, it followed. A bunch of pretty girls was in the black honda. I honked, she honked. We laughed together and kept doing it like 20 minutes! after the unloading was finished, i went about 4 rounds again, passed asia cafe and Sri KL. Sri KL was flooded with bunch of kia su drivers and parents, blocked the small area.
I was always most of the time lucky enough to find a good parking space for my car but today was just not my day. I then saw one small parking space not really a good enough one for me, but i was desperate. It was in front of myplace apartment, the one in between Inti and Taylors, right before asia cafe parking and the SoyaKing lorry and 2pm already! psycho class!! i tried squeezing in between a toyota camry and a perodua myvi. no spacee. Some stranger came and tried to estimate for me. i said cannot, but he said it's possible but nott easy. i tried and i scratched the myvi. The guard in the myplace apartment saw and stopped me and offered me to park inside the apartment. Now i know where to park when i'm deperate!
To be Continue.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Something Short.
Feeling... Complicated.
There are times when one is Immobilized.
The No Mood situation.
Merely plain empty inside.
No sense of happiness nor sadness.
Meaningless.
A little fear something.
The Feeling of being Defenceless, Useless, Helpless, Powerless.
Like an abrupt blurriness occurring your mind that make a short moment sort of elusive.
Well, it comes and goes away.
Don't think too much.
When Negative Stuff hits you, Meet it, Kill it, Erase it, Leave it and Live.
To be Continue.
There are times when one is Immobilized.
The No Mood situation.
Merely plain empty inside.
No sense of happiness nor sadness.
Meaningless.
A little fear something.
The Feeling of being Defenceless, Useless, Helpless, Powerless.
Like an abrupt blurriness occurring your mind that make a short moment sort of elusive.
Well, it comes and goes away.
Don't think too much.
When Negative Stuff hits you, Meet it, Kill it, Erase it, Leave it and Live.
To be Continue.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
An Outing/Mini Date.
Considering it as a mini date! It was the 7th of March.
I went out with Elaine.
Carmen, Samuel, and Evan didn't made it. Ending up just the both of us.
Went to Yuen's Steamboat Buffet at Sunway and to pyramid.
I went out with Elaine.
Carmen, Samuel, and Evan didn't made it. Ending up just the both of us.
Went to Yuen's Steamboat Buffet at Sunway and to pyramid.
*Pop*
Chicken Liver.
More Chicken Liver!@_@ *YUMMY* @_@
Our Table, Half way eating. 3rd round!(should have taken more earlier pictures here.) =/
*Smiles*
Strawberry Lemonade.
*Smiles*
:D
=)
:D :D
one of the best picture.
★★★★★
I'll save the last one.
I had a Wonderful Night. =D
To be Continue.
To be Continue.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
12th March.
TENSION LA! / SCARED LA / WORRY LE! / CHILLED! / EXCITED MANN! / STRESS!!!! / WHATEVER~~/ I DON'T WANT TO GO COLLECT /
HAHA I'M STUDYING ABROAD *NO WORRIES* /
SUDAH MASUK COLLEGE, *NO WORRIES*
OMG OMG OMG.
Doa sampai nak mati.
*AKU TAK BOLEH TIDUR!*
= INSOMNIA.
PUKUL 1 PAGI.
HAHA I'M STUDYING ABROAD *NO WORRIES* /
SUDAH MASUK COLLEGE, *NO WORRIES*
OMG OMG OMG.
Doa sampai nak mati.
*AKU TAK BOLEH TIDUR!*
= INSOMNIA.
PUKUL 1 PAGI.
i don't know what to feel from these situations/dramatizations.~
This Feeling, This Pressures. Parents are Looking forward to your results, your neighbors, FRIENDS, Mom's and Dad's side of family, Brothers, Sisters, the aunties, the uncles, the cousins, the nephews, the Strangers.
But what's done, is done. Let it be. Let the Results Prove the hard work of 11 years of studies from standard 1 up till form 5.
well,
This Feeling, This Pressures. Parents are Looking forward to your results, your neighbors, FRIENDS, Mom's and Dad's side of family, Brothers, Sisters, the aunties, the uncles, the cousins, the nephews, the Strangers.
THE BUSYBODIES!
But what's done, is done. Let it be. Let the Results Prove the hard work of 11 years of studies from standard 1 up till form 5.
well,
Good Luck and All The Best To Every Result Takers.
To Be Continue.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Jason Mraz.
*BOOOM* It Was A BOMB, BOMBARDED With The Sea of Crowds, AWESOME SOUND SYSTEM, It Was A Blast, It Was Superb!
Cheryl & Me
It Was A Wonderful Night. 4th of March.
Cheryl & Me
I hope I had made your day. Get Better, Stay Happy. =)
PS: I'm a Mini Fan Of Jason Mraz !
To Be Continue.
PS: I'm a Mini Fan Of Jason Mraz !
To Be Continue.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Saturday, February 28, 2009
And Again.
Deep inside every girlfriends, ask yourself "Does your boyfriend really really, Really Loves you?" a boyfriend that will take care of you, that will always be there when you need em, always wish you good night sleeps, wish you up in the morning just to hear your voice, caress you gently, surprise you with the cutest gift that no other girls can buy, and the only guy person that understands, your needs. Understands that once he is in a relationship with you, he would quit smoking and limits his amount of days in clubs. Nonetheless, the only fear that everyone have is, you shouldn't have 2 or more relationships at a time. If you have marked all the points, you should know the answer and you can consider yourself being the luckiest girlfriend in life. But ask again, "Is your Boyfriend, the luckiest boyfriend in life?"
And one more thing, a boyfriend who is capable to protect. A guy who can rescue you when you're in trouble. Haha. I'm not encouraging you to go after the gangster boyfriends or anything, as they are generally easy to get in fights, and highly temperamental. Do you feel secure in that way?
I was kind of weak back then.
Flashing back the past, 2 months ago. 59 days back. New Year's eve. I went countdown with my friends at Sunway Pyramid. it was 1.14 am. Year 2009 already. I was hanging with 2 of my girl friends waiting for my sister to reach pyramid from a barbecue countdown at an unknown beach on the way to Port Dickson, so we can get back together with lesser problems because my parents were still awake and waiting us to come back home. Well, we were at the pyramid entrance, viewing across the 5 foot way, people were still having snow spray wars, girls were screaming and yelling "NOOO" when they get sprayed. The guys were chasing after them with that screaming weapon. Different girls they sprayed on, different sounds they get.
While staring at the situation, this bunch of malay guys were wandering around us with their sickening snow spray. I knew my friends were having that no good expression. Both of them hated the snow spray.
"ed vinn, i think we better get inside."
"we go now, faster walk. Go go go."
*Sprayed*
"WTF"
I Shoved the guy with my palm, who sprayed one of my friend. he almost slump down and I gave him my anger look.
"JANGAN KACAU"
he stood up. giving me the "WTF" look.
"Kenapa?"
his gang came up, roughly 8 of them including him. they wanted to encircle me. I moved back, 8 feet away from the small entrance where my friends were inside already. 8 of them were quite skinny, aging about 17-19 years old. They have that look that they want to hit me.
I said with anger, "Kawan Saya TAK Suka Benda itu." even though I am one person only, i was nervous inside.
"Kenapa?" they guy reply the same thing. Then all of them came closer to me.
"GO AWAY" I shouted at them, moving backward and quickly into the small entrance.
2 security guards were at the small entrance. The main one was closed already. The securities were ensuring that no snow sprays were allowed in the building. The malay gang went in from the other side of the small entrance beside starbucks. One of my friend reported to one of the securites, "Itu Melayu di Luar nak Kacau kami!" i wanted to point at the guy who sprayed my friend but he went off after he saw us with the securities.
We sat down about an hour plus with the securities. Another 3 companion came. We talked while waiting till 3.20am and my sister reached. Took a taxi that cost rm25 to ss18, dropped off my friends home savely, and went back home. Baba And Mama, Yelling. And that was the end of it.
I pictured back again, I didn't have the strength to shoo the malay gang, instead I fled away. I was small. My friends were insecure. I felt weak.
And Now, I want to have that strength to protect. Give me at least 3 months.
To be Continue.
And one more thing, a boyfriend who is capable to protect. A guy who can rescue you when you're in trouble. Haha. I'm not encouraging you to go after the gangster boyfriends or anything, as they are generally easy to get in fights, and highly temperamental. Do you feel secure in that way?
I was kind of weak back then.
Flashing back the past, 2 months ago. 59 days back. New Year's eve. I went countdown with my friends at Sunway Pyramid. it was 1.14 am. Year 2009 already. I was hanging with 2 of my girl friends waiting for my sister to reach pyramid from a barbecue countdown at an unknown beach on the way to Port Dickson, so we can get back together with lesser problems because my parents were still awake and waiting us to come back home. Well, we were at the pyramid entrance, viewing across the 5 foot way, people were still having snow spray wars, girls were screaming and yelling "NOOO" when they get sprayed. The guys were chasing after them with that screaming weapon. Different girls they sprayed on, different sounds they get.
While staring at the situation, this bunch of malay guys were wandering around us with their sickening snow spray. I knew my friends were having that no good expression. Both of them hated the snow spray.
"ed vinn, i think we better get inside."
"we go now, faster walk. Go go go."
*Sprayed*
"WTF"
I Shoved the guy with my palm, who sprayed one of my friend. he almost slump down and I gave him my anger look.
"JANGAN KACAU"
he stood up. giving me the "WTF" look.
"Kenapa?"
his gang came up, roughly 8 of them including him. they wanted to encircle me. I moved back, 8 feet away from the small entrance where my friends were inside already. 8 of them were quite skinny, aging about 17-19 years old. They have that look that they want to hit me.
I said with anger, "Kawan Saya TAK Suka Benda itu." even though I am one person only, i was nervous inside.
"Kenapa?" they guy reply the same thing. Then all of them came closer to me.
"GO AWAY" I shouted at them, moving backward and quickly into the small entrance.
2 security guards were at the small entrance. The main one was closed already. The securities were ensuring that no snow sprays were allowed in the building. The malay gang went in from the other side of the small entrance beside starbucks. One of my friend reported to one of the securites, "Itu Melayu di Luar nak Kacau kami!" i wanted to point at the guy who sprayed my friend but he went off after he saw us with the securities.
We sat down about an hour plus with the securities. Another 3 companion came. We talked while waiting till 3.20am and my sister reached. Took a taxi that cost rm25 to ss18, dropped off my friends home savely, and went back home. Baba And Mama, Yelling. And that was the end of it.
I pictured back again, I didn't have the strength to shoo the malay gang, instead I fled away. I was small. My friends were insecure. I felt weak.
And Now, I want to have that strength to protect. Give me at least 3 months.
To be Continue.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Restart.
Hello! This would be my new blog and my fourth one.
And it would be more to a Self Help type.
To Be Continue.
And it would be more to a Self Help type.
To Be Continue.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Once Again
Back to blogging.Am I Awake?
I want ME to change this time. I know I have been missing for ages from blogging. I’m always lazy to blog and I have no purpose to blog for. Instead, I do stuffs that are meaningless. Entertainment from Games, especially DOTA. A game that most boys plays this generation. Too much of this entertainment holds one back. It kills your time and your life. PS: For those who don’t know much about the game, it’s a map from the game, Warcraft, Frozen Throne, that you play over and over again, except, you play it again with a different hero, different teammates and opponents. The task in the game is to destroy the opponent’s throne to win the game. That is where the addiction kicks in. An average duration to complete the game takes about 40 minute to 1 hour and 10 minutes.
This was where I saw myself as a useless person. Half of my Life was destroyed from that game. A game that only satisfies temporary when you win the game, it’s F***ing ridiculous.
Gamers;
Over & Repeating Entertainment = Lifeless, Wasted.
Now you readers know, what I been doing for these years, it really kills.
It was sad. Not to mention, there are other stuffs too, but I don’t think I want to touch on that.
My Amendment.
Well, I’m strongly inspired now. Most of them came from my surroundings. Before this, knowing many friends who are already decided what they want in their future and looking at me, still undecided yet. I saw in their eyes, many were just plain determined, some were so random, some were confident but not so sure, some were convinced from parents & friends, and only few knew what they really wanted. Same questions had thrown me a thousand times, “So what are you planning to do?”, “My son, Oh, he decided to take medicine, pursuing to be a Doctor,” “Oh I’m going to do Business” “I am going to master in English.” “I am going to do Law!” “mass-com” “And me?” I don’t know. I was in the state of total lost, but not for long. I came out with options in my mind, first was piloting, second was hotel management, third was accountancy, forth was into cooking and the last was a last resort, following my dad’s footsteps to become an electrical engineer. It was a long process to actually and firmly and genuinely and properly decide a path from my options.
On the other hand, when it comes to this point when someone to come up to you, “I do look up high on you” seeing you’re capable in taking possessions of something, strikes in your mind. It’s a strong compliment which you’re not sure you may or may not deserve it. Why hesitate? Maybe because you think it might not been proven yet or maybe you’re in the process of improving that, it showed people to see the change in you. And that, it is a sign of respect you don’t want to dilute it. “Do not be proud before you achieve and prove something.”
To be Continue.
I want ME to change this time. I know I have been missing for ages from blogging. I’m always lazy to blog and I have no purpose to blog for. Instead, I do stuffs that are meaningless. Entertainment from Games, especially DOTA. A game that most boys plays this generation. Too much of this entertainment holds one back. It kills your time and your life. PS: For those who don’t know much about the game, it’s a map from the game, Warcraft, Frozen Throne, that you play over and over again, except, you play it again with a different hero, different teammates and opponents. The task in the game is to destroy the opponent’s throne to win the game. That is where the addiction kicks in. An average duration to complete the game takes about 40 minute to 1 hour and 10 minutes.
This was where I saw myself as a useless person. Half of my Life was destroyed from that game. A game that only satisfies temporary when you win the game, it’s F***ing ridiculous.
Gamers;
Over & Repeating Entertainment = Lifeless, Wasted.
Now you readers know, what I been doing for these years, it really kills.
It was sad. Not to mention, there are other stuffs too, but I don’t think I want to touch on that.
My Amendment.
Well, I’m strongly inspired now. Most of them came from my surroundings. Before this, knowing many friends who are already decided what they want in their future and looking at me, still undecided yet. I saw in their eyes, many were just plain determined, some were so random, some were confident but not so sure, some were convinced from parents & friends, and only few knew what they really wanted. Same questions had thrown me a thousand times, “So what are you planning to do?”, “My son, Oh, he decided to take medicine, pursuing to be a Doctor,” “Oh I’m going to do Business” “I am going to master in English.” “I am going to do Law!” “mass-com” “And me?” I don’t know. I was in the state of total lost, but not for long. I came out with options in my mind, first was piloting, second was hotel management, third was accountancy, forth was into cooking and the last was a last resort, following my dad’s footsteps to become an electrical engineer. It was a long process to actually and firmly and genuinely and properly decide a path from my options.
On the other hand, when it comes to this point when someone to come up to you, “I do look up high on you” seeing you’re capable in taking possessions of something, strikes in your mind. It’s a strong compliment which you’re not sure you may or may not deserve it. Why hesitate? Maybe because you think it might not been proven yet or maybe you’re in the process of improving that, it showed people to see the change in you. And that, it is a sign of respect you don’t want to dilute it. “Do not be proud before you achieve and prove something.”
To be Continue.
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